Be mine?

Tuesdays run in with the boy kinda sucked. I waskinda fucked all day from lack of coke up my nose and a mix of other pills inside me. saw stephen last weekend- could have been wayyyyyy better but who knows, im sure it wontbe the last time i see him. sean dying isweird. just thats it could have been me. so manytimes. i really do take life forgranted. oh a happy note.... god my newClandestine shirt and necklace SOOOOO AMAZING. tomorrow is valentines day and for once i dont really care. i have good people in my life and i want to be with them. i mean part of me misses the security of having a boyfriend but im almost surprised that im not bumming. maybe i will tomorrow but i can get over it.i miss james. imisshow it was with us and iundertand that we are growing up (apart) and it sucks. plain and simple. I want mashfield sundays back.