bratttt

again i do something nice for someone and it doent end up how i want. i cancelled an appt. so could go with lyndz to acton. I called her at 3ish to find out shes was already on her way. didnt bother to let me know so that kinda sucked call alil later to call me to hang out and she wonders why im mad. then i send to off to NH with a boy i have NO RESPECT for and i think is a dirty whore with my gps and good wishes. God if only I had a friend like me. also james left lyndz a inbox message on facebook < woah loserrrrr much ahaha but really he is sketchy. and it sucksss why does he have to do that i dont care if he hangs out with my firneds. well i do care but i have to bite my tounge and that sucks he knoew i just dont want him with lyndz but i also really believe he lves the attention of us fighting cuz he can have us both and he isnt trying to teach me some lesson abt tim hes doesnt even know what going on with time, which is nothing by the way other than im crushinggggg. but like he tries to hide that he hangs out with them and that hurts SO BAD. and i dont know how to relate my feelings to him without sounds like a wicked bitch or just screaming at him. ah. he makes my head hurt but i guess id rather my head hurt than his.